March 31st 2006

So every morning I sit down for 20 minutes and I read the various news web sites to see what is going on in the world, this morning I think I about lost it... I came across this case where this mother was given 5 years probation for drowning her newborn in a toilet.  5 YEARS PROBATION!  Oh yeah thats not all I guss she has to seek counciling for her various phobias. COMON PEOPLE! She killed an innocent little baby. And in my local paper this morning I see that someone got 18 months probation for manufacturing meth.. Probly not his first offense but who knows. I understand  the justice system is jammed to the max, and I understand that the jails are over populated to beyond capcity. I also understand that congress this year will probly approve really important bills saying that moose that live in Maine should be protected by pretty neon signs that should be placed on the road to scare them away from on coming traffic, but can only be placed on roads where less than 15 people drive on it a day. And you know just as well as I do that that piece of legislation will cost the tax payers millions of dollars, and at the benefit of what? A moose. I dont know how to create change, especially in the world of politics and law. I really wouldnt know where to start. Write your congressperson or legislater you say, ok... and then what. Wait for the reply of a standard form letter saying thank you for your support vote for me in November. Get envolved you say. With who, I dont support what the law makers are doing, so why get envolved with them. Thier are many radical groups out thier sure I can jump on that bandwagon and for what. They make alot of noise but little changes. How do we go about voiceing our opinions and being heard without being ridiculed at the same time. Not a single person will stay on task as long as thier is something more interesting about the person fighing the topic than the topic itself. If i start fighting the stupidity of congress today then my job will come into question, or my lack of education about my topic. And yet we tell our kids to go out into the world and do thier best at making things better, when we dont even know how.

March 22, 2006

Wow I see I have posts already to my new web site im so excied!!! Ok on to todays musings.

OK so we got new neighbors, ok let me fill you in on one other thing. I run a daycare out of my home, I have 5 children here other than my own, ranging in ages 1-8. So whats the problem. Today I am looking out my window as the snow is disappearing. I notice a truck parked in the street and a gal I know quite well being a daycare provider going to the house next door where my new neighbors moved in about a month ago. So my first thought, DHS this can't be good who in the world are these people.lol. Then I over hear (ok sorta on purpose I opened my window) and heard this gal as she was leaving say that my new neighbor that she should recieve in about 3 weeks her new daycare license but that she can start taking children as soon as she wants to as long as she doesnt exceed the state limit for someone without a license. OK so whats the problem you ask. Well, I have 2 boys in my daycare with ADD and both of them have a serious disreguard for following any type of rules. Now in my house they know the limits and since I have had these children for quite some time we have meshed nicely. Now with summer coming up soon we will have a transistion period that will last about 2 weeks where it will be a nightmare around here, but I know it will be ok I have done this many times before. The problem I have is this, I have no idea what this gal next door is like, I don't know if she has any expierence with this (her child is still quite young out of an infant car seat but barely walking young) so here is my fear. 1 of 2 things is going to happen. (and yes I have tried talking to this gal, I cant seem to get past Hi) either she is going to end up with a few kids, we'll all get along and it will be a great summer OR she will end up with a few kids and day one will show that for some reason my kids or hers will hate the other. (I am praying for the first btw) My kids are loud, active (moreso than normal) kids. I just hope my new neighbor and I can meet under circumstances WITHIN our control and not meeting because so and so threw a ball across the fence and Joe said a bad word which made Fred mad who threw Sara over the fence to beat up Alice (fake names here people)... I liked my old neighbor. lol

March 21, 2006

Today I spent most of my day doing family tree research and dusting. I hate drywall. I know this is a short entry compared to the rest but I am totally beyond tired. Maybe tomorrow I'll have a more interesting day.

March 20, 2006

So today I spent a lot of my time working on genealogy on my husbands side of the family. a few questions have come to mind while doing this. I have managed to find online someone who has done a lot of research way back to before the year 1000. now where in the world did anyone find anything written with total confidence in its finding to accuracy that old. yes I know they have found artifacts way back to before Christ, the pyramids for examples. what I wouldn't give to come across a piece of information on my side of the family to break through the wall of my family being left here my aliens. I could literally sit all day and do research on family trees. you don't go to college for a degree in this I have come to find out. you literally do hours upon hours of research and digging (metaphorically of course) through papers and books and microfiche. and then you take a test to see if your ready to take another test. I don't even know where to begin. and then the question pops into my head, can someone make a real living doing nothing but research about other peoples families? Obviously the answer is yes but where do you find the people who want to know where they come from. and then even more important why bother. who cares? I have one simple answer for those who do ask me. I do it for my children's children. some day they are going to go to my children and ask the question where did my ancestors come from. and even though my kids may not get into this half as much as I am I want them to be able to give them some concrete answer. I want them to be able to look in a book and see that they came from something bigger than the family they can actually see. my husbands family is quite fascinating, I can not wait to tell my son about the ancestors in his line, the amazing things they did for British history. Part of his family actually helped in the building if Alnwick Castle. that means nothing to you, but some day I am going to take him their. so he can see where his ancestors stood, see what they helped create. see what they did for a country in a really big way.  if that is all I leave behind for my great grandchildren, a book of history a book of knowledge. I will go with all the happiness in the world. and even if only one of my decedents along the way fully reads or even looks through, or heck even adds to this tree I'm building then my job was worth it. you can leave history behind, lost. or you can bring it with you to relive at your leisure.

March 19th 2006

I would not say that I am a person who believes in staying away from black cats or not walking under a ladder. but I can admit to believing in things that may be bigger. about seven months ago we were taking down a part of the tree in the back yard. I was standing under the tree while my husband was in the tree cutting away a branch. I moved and not a minute later a piece of the tree fell where I was standing. ok yes no big deal. but the reason why I moved. I saw a humming bird come shooting into the yard, that's not something we see much around here. and I got all warm and fuzzy as though it was something that I should really be paying attention to. so I moved. now my great grand mother when she was alive always liked humming birds, from what I remember of her. and it wasn't till later in the day that I realized that may be it was a sign. maybe she was flying by to say hey pay attention and move. I like to believe that even when we don't notice them little tiny miracles happen around us each and every day. now I am not saying find something your favorite grandparent liked and really look around to see if anything miracles is happening with those items. what I am saying however is just try for 1 day to just believe in the fact that even though things may not be under your control, someone has them under control. whether you believe in a god, a goddess or a frog. believe in something. anything. believe in the fact that something somewhere is watching everything you do, not to judge. but to help maybe, to save. its that little voice inside your head that says hey check on the kids just one last time, are you sure you turned off the stove before you left? believe in that voice. as for me, I believe my great grand mother was their that day. I think she flew in just to say hey, I said hi back. and I believe she heard me.